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Its Fall

And here I am. I'm thinking about how much I have changed in the past year and a half. I used to fly in and work 12-hour shifts, double shifts, any kind of shift....and now one hour on my feet and I am really hurting. My side hurts. My hemoglobin was low yesterday and I am just waiting for the doc to call and tell me to go get a CT instead of a chest x-ray. I just have this feeling......

Thing is, I USED to be so STRONG. Years of life on a farm, horseback riding, hauling wood, working out, and doing the hard lifting of nursing.....I was so strong. Now, I'm not. Thats a tough pill to swallow. I want to be strong again. AND, I just read that for a grade 4 liver laceration you are not supposed to do ANY heavy lifting, nothing strenuous, for like, five MONTHS. (I guess that means I should not have picked mom up off the floor when she fell the other night).

Esoteric Astrology teaches that when you have an afflicted sixth house (I have sun/moon/mars in the sixth with some difficult aspects from Neptune), that whatever gets taken away physically is given back spiritually. I sure do hope that is the case.

And I have absolutely no money. I think I am going to try and sell some art. I dont even have enough money to buy more paint or gessobord. I have 2 small gessobords left. I'm going to put up a gallery on Facebook with painting dimensions and prices. I may try and do prints of my pencils and pen/inks. I have to do something.

*sighs*


SJ

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adoraluna
Oct. 22nd, 2009 03:18 pm (UTC)
You might also try to sell your art on Etsy. I don't know if they charge or not though. Etsy would reach a wider span of people as opposed to just your facebook friends
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I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. I know it kills you to not be going going going.
azul_ros
Oct. 23rd, 2009 08:29 am (UTC)
I should try Etsy too. I had a substitute teacher in my ceramics class & she had business cards with an Etsy page listed. :)
selenajade
Oct. 31st, 2009 02:24 am (UTC)
I did go and check ETSY....you have to pay a little bit for each listing....and I don't even have a little bit! LOL....I'm going to keep on, though.
adoraluna
Oct. 31st, 2009 07:01 am (UTC)
Well that sucks. :( Stupid money. >.
azul_ros
Oct. 23rd, 2009 08:28 am (UTC)
I used to be very strong too. Didn't work on a farm, but I did work out. I haven't been to the gym since July, or August. My own fault. Physical injuries are not to be taken lightly! I have Mars in the 12th house & I have to lie low & recharge myself or I will get sick easily. I am sure you'll be okay after the 5-6 months it takes to heal. Just sit back & think about where you want to go with your life & don't push your body too hard.
selenajade
Oct. 31st, 2009 02:25 am (UTC)
Thank you for your very sensible advice. No point getting all aggravated when there's nothing can be done about it.
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